i don't know what has been happening with everyone lately... all i know is what is happening with me... i have a band thing tommorow morning, i hav yw tonight, i have been finding some realy good songs on playlist.com, and have been reading some realy good books. we are close to the end of school, which means we are closes to taks testing and semester tests. i can't belive that i will be in highschool next year... wow... we got a wii which keeps the boys occupied but causes arguments... i try to stay away from those things... lately i have been picky about how others treat others. example, saturday me and my mom went to a yw broadcast, on the way home we started talking about things like school, church, movies, ect. well we started talking bad about people and, i have noticed this a lot lately, i thought that God loves every one of us and that we are just as strange as others, and we shouldn't be talking about people this way... my mom agreed with me. so, we found something else to talk about. well at school my friends were doing the same thing my mom and i were doing, i mentioned that it wasn't kind to talk that way about people. they just laughed and continued....

my days

my days seem to be getting shorter and shorter. im getting more tired as each day passes. people tell me i look sick. they say i should go to the nurse or something. teachers watch me as if expecting me to zonk out at any moment. is this good or bad? i have no idea but it is kinda getting annoying. sometimes i feel like falling asleep right in the middle of class but luckly i dont. i go to bed at 9 usualy cause thats when we have prayer. i wake up at 6 thats pretty normal. so i dont no why i am so tired. if anyone knows why let me know please, and posibly tell me a way to fix it.

poetry

poetry... geez its a great way to express ur feelings and yet i still keep them hidden... i know, i know, "you should share your talents" so on and so forth. yeah but then there is the feeling of embaressment that comes from sharing your talents with those wh think its a curse... i hate that feeling. some people dont know much about me because they dont seem to care, others because they have laughed at me every time i do something. try being me some time... i know that everyne has their moments, but it still hurts. what i wonder is is how many people acctualy com out and share their talents instead of keeping them a secret? is it just me? or are there others like me?

the meaning of love.

my life is scary.
its hard as well.
i seem to be confused alot,
and dont know what to do or expect next.
why do we feel love?
why do we feel hate?
why do wish?
why do we dream?
whats the point in being different,
when all we get feel is regret?
for being our selves,
for doing what we like to do,
for being who we like to be.
this world is crazy.
some people are considered lazy.
but that is because they are different from everyone else.
we are all different and like different things.
we all change at different times.
we all like different things.
we are never alike no matter how hard we try to fit in we never do.
i know this and you should, too.
every thing is different for everyone.
but thats ok because we are never alone.
there are people who like the same things.
there are friends and family who understand.
that is the true meaning of love.

b.h.

the year 2008 to the year 2009

This year has been GREAT if you call sitting in your bed every day reading books, listening to your radio, and some times texting your friends great then my year has been GREAT. Yay!! And this new year im going to celebrate with friends and family doing weird stuff and having fun. Well, as some of you know Grandma and Grandpa Haynie got me a phone for my birthday, and i have been useing my unlimited texting very well. So thanks Grandma and Grandpa!! It rocks!!
So, new year... whats every one thinking...
1. we are all going to die
2. the econpmy will get better
3. Obama!!
4. oh no...
5.what is going to happen to me now?
6. will this year be better?
7. what should i wear... tommorow... and the next day... and the day after that...
8. what will me husband forget to do this year/ what should i make him do this year?
9. what chores should i add to the kids list?
10. why am i still alive? havent i lived long enough?

i dont know bout you but im looking forward to this new year... it seems like it will be... GREAT!!

Camp

Camp was so much fun I loved it!! Even though we could hardly swim with the new life jacket rule, but the other activities were great!! We slept in air conditioned cabins, 1 for each ward well some wards shared.We had a water trampoline but it was "Looking sad" all through camp. We got to canoe, make crafts in the pavilion (cafe), had little life lessons, (like no scaring people while they have a hairbrush in their hand), and went on a fun little hike!!Well I will tell you a story later.

camp

Summer is going better, lots more fun. Camp is in 2 weeks Monday 16th, through friday 19th. well we leave Friday morning. I have been cleaning my room it was actuly clean enough to move rooms with the boys, but Sara decided to clean out her closet Agian. so back to work!!

summer

it is SUMMER finally but only 8 days into summer and i am already BORED so bored i could die it could be because my mom is in Colorado for my Great Grandpa's funeral hi died Thursday the 5Th of June 2008. I didn't know him that well but enough to feel like my heart has a small missing spot that aches, but not enough to cry in pain. i really feel bad for my mom, aunts, uncles, Grandparents, great aunts and uncles, and others that loved him and knew him well. i feel really bad for his wife, my great grandma, who is now on her own. she is lucky though to have family up there to be with her one of my moms cousins are going to stay with her for a while i hope she does O.K.